06.. and better luck ahead I hope..

I didn't know what I would title this post to be but then again, its been some time since I posted an entry. I lost track of time and everything. Life is not very rosy when you don't have enough money. :-/

Anyway, a big belated Happy New Year to whoever's reading, a belated Hari Raya Haji to my Muslim friends and family and of course, next up, Chinese New Year. Xing Nian Kuai Le.. I hope I got that right. :)

I surely hope this year's CNY will bring me luck, because last year was a little boring to me at least. Even though it was MY year, being that I'm a Rooster, I hope in the Year of the Dog, my luck will pick up alot more. I suppose its time I got myself a stable job instead of hopping all over the place. I need the money for my present and my future life. No use looking back to the past I guess, everyone has to move on sometime. I've been bumming for too long.

Damn.. it was too long. Sometimes I wonder if I should have signed on with the Army when I had the chance. I should have.. though I think to myself, would I like doing guard duty all the way until I complete the 10 years of service? Would I like the extra responsibility that comes with being a regular soldier? I doubt it. Given my personality, I think I'd rather have my freedom thank you very much.

I suppose I keep getting depressed when I see how well some of my friends are doing. Maybe because I haven't been putting in more effort when it comes to job-seeking. I guess so. I should put in more effort and not keep making excuses for my lazy ass.

But then, there's the usual job ads that keep saying.. must be bilingual in Chinese, need to be able to speak/write Chinese. Damn.. why does this keep happening? Singapore IS Singapore, not China. No offense, I'm Chinese too but my Mandarin sucks and I can't read nor write Chinese to save my skin.

That said, some other jobs keep asking for people with degrees as a minimum requirement.. so what's my Diploma gonna get me? I suppose peanuts.. then I should have studied in ITE when I could. No offense but I think an ITC or NTC would have gotten me a real job much earlier.

And of course, the need for having several years of experience. Now tell me, how the HECK does one get experience if one doesn't get employed for ages? Damn the system.

I know I should give university a try or at least get a degree from one of those distance-learning centres like what my GF did.. but I already have a financial burden. The damn repayments to the CPF. Why can't they cut us some slack and burn off that requirement? It is definitely a pain in the ass to keep repaying and repaying and the interest keeps piling up. Its like legalised loan-sharking.. for a lack of a better word. Now I don't have a problem paying up the money to my dad who forked it out, but I definitely would have prefered NOT to have it as a financial burden after I completed NS.

Now.. back to reality.. end of complaining.. I suppose all I gotta do is get a real job, any job, anything that gives me money at the end of the month. Its terrible not having a steady cash flow. It sucks, and I know YOU people know too.

My dream?.. getting 3K a month doing what I love best... FAT CHANCE. Nobody pays diploma grads 3K a month, especially if they have almost zero experience like me. If I had a time machine I'd transport myself back to when I was a kid. No worries.. nothing.

Life is a mess for me right now. Damn. I would type out vulgarities but then it wouldn't be nice for the kids.

When the elections are here, I hope I don't get the usual walkovers and get a REAL contest. For once, can the people in power have some balls and abolish the damn groupie system? Let the folks contest man to man or woman to man, or woman to woman in the separate constituencies. Once that happens I suppose parliament will be a REAL parliament and not some 1 party system.

Plus, I don't see how having a single rep from the minorities in the groupie system will help if 80 - 90% of the reps in power are of the majority race. That my friends, is a major peeve of mine. It is really unfair when the current demographics do not justify such numbers. Why should we have so many majority folks in power when in fact, we should increase the reps from the minorities? Give more say to the minorities, please.

Disclaimer: I know someone or somebody will monitor this but its just my opinion. I disclaim any affiliation to a political party and I follow nobody's ideals but mine. Apologies in advance to sensitive folks who may take issue with my post. Thanks.